HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEEEEE ~

Hi korangggggg! *waving*

Korang sihat? So. its my birthday! Yeayyyyyyyy. Haha. Semalam itself dah dapat hadiah. From mom and Syed. Haha mom bagi perfume. Syed bagi chocolate. Tapi hmm, karen tak makan chocolate sangat. Tapi takpe la. Haha, Ni ha surprise dia......

Haaaa nampak? LOL masa tu karen text dia karen cakap nak kuar pergi makan dengan mak. Then dia cakap okay. Dia pun nak kuar kejap. Ok first: Karen takpernah bagitahu dia alamat rumah karen. Dengan ex2 karen pun takpernah bagitahu. Ada. Satu je. Adil Hafeeq tu. Tapi dah lama dah. K back to the topic. Haa, then bila dah balik rumah tu check phone, tengok ada text dari dia. Dia suruh check peti surat xD And I was like....No. Ingatkan dia bergurau. Sbb karen tak pernah bgthu dia mana rumah karen. So ok text balik. Ingtkn bergurau. Tapi dalam hati dup dap dup dap. Hahahaha. okay then turun blik, amek kunci, bukak pintu, pergi kat pergi surat, and OMG hahahahaha betul lah dia datang letak hadiah dalam peti surat rumah karen. Masa tu terkejut+happy+terkejut+happy+terkejut+happy = Speechless. Hahahahahaha dia bagi chocolate x) Yeayyy. Haha I love surprises! :) Thanks tau hubby? I love you so much. (Sampai sekarang, karen still taktahu macam mana dia tahu mana rumah karen. Dia taknak bagitahu) Hahahahaha.

Okay this one form kakak karen. Yeap, I always loved Elinanto products. Perhaps, most of my cosmetics are from Elianto. And she bought more! Yeayyy. Love her! :*

Okay, plan harini actually nak kuar pergi Midvalley utk celebrate birthday dengan kawan kawan. AND THE PLAN WAS CANCELED. Dafuqqqq? Its my birthday, and semua nya tak jadi. Haih karen memang suka bila semua dah plan, and last minute kene cancel. Memang suka. suka sangat. PUIHHHH. grrr. Sumpah geram gila tadi. So dengan kawan tak jadi. But tonight celebrating with Family :) Tapi taktahu pergi mana. Karen tanya, semua cakap taktahu. Ni mesti surprise lagi. Eh eh. Haha. 

So, esok skola. And guess what? Baju skola, kasut skola, semua tak basuh lagi. Homework pun langsung tak sentuh. How great. Hahahahahaha ingatkan taknak pergi skola esok. Hmm malas :( Tapi Syed tu haaaaa, dia suruh pergi jugak xD So kene lah pergi :) Lagipun Cikgu Asah nak belanja Susu dutchlady Strawberry dari kantin tu haa. Hahahahahaha MY FAVOURITE! :) So sape sape yang tak tahu nak beli apa utk birthday karen, beli susu dutchlady tu je. I will love it. Hihi *muka tak malu* Sorry. LOL Tapi jgn lupa beli yang strawberry tau?! Hahahaha taknak perisa lain :3 Eh eh. jgn lupa kbai.

Seventeen.

OMG OMG Hi guysss!

Ohmy. Rindu nyaaaa. Haha lama tak update blog dah :) This is the only day I get to really sit with my lappy. Sebelum ni asyik busy je. Haha maklumlah, dah form5. Ecececeh :3 Well, being in form 5 is not as easy as you think. Its hard. Dengan subject yang merapu rapu. OMG I can't take it anymore. Sumpah susah. FUCK ADD MATHS. FUCK ACCOUNTS. Hate these two subjects. They're being such a bitch. Ahhhhhhhhhhhh benci nyaaa. Haha. Well, what can I say? I'm seventeen and I have to accept the fact that I'll be stting for my SPM this year. This sucks. But yeah, this is for real. Eh eh belum 17 lagi :P Another 2 days then I'll be officially 17. Yeayyyyy. Yes, my birthday. 20th January. Can't wait xD Wuhuuuuuu ~

So, on the 2nd January haritu karen tak update blog. Sebab biasanya setiap kali anniversarry karen dengan Syed, mesti karen update blog without fail kan. Yeah, haritu maybe busy kot. Entah. Lupa. So yeahh, its been 10 months since he proposed me to be his girlfriend. Including today, it has been 10 months and 16 days. Since March 2012. Sayang, walaupun kitorang dah banyak bergaduh. Banyak sakit hati, banyak sedih. Tapi our relationship has always been stronger than I thought. I love you. I really do. Never care what people says. As long as we love each other, its perfect.

Okay btw, rindu tak blog karen? Ececececeh tahu lah rindu :P omg. I need to really study hard this year. Seriously nak dapat reasults yang akan buat mummy and daddy cry :') Or maybe not daddy, Just mummy. Hehe. Next month dah start tuition. Its like everyday ada tuition. OMG I hope all this worth the money that my parents are paying. Okay lepas SPM nak sambung belajar. Nak amik course Culinary Arts or maybe graphic designing. Tak tahu nak pilih mana. Because I love both. Suka sangat masak-masak ni. Bukan setakat masak, I really love baking. Like baking cakes, cupcakes, cookies and also pastries. OMG I can't wait to be a baker maybe? /cries/ Haha. But parents tak agree sangat dengan Culinary Arts ni. Dorang cakap Graphic designing is better. Why? Because according to them, now tak ramai yang suka grapic desinging, so chances are high that salary would be higher. In another word, my future will be brighter. But hmm. I really do love baking. Mana lah tahu nanti karen boleh bukak kedai cake sendiri ke? Okay dah start berangan.................. Haha kdiam.

Anyways, thats all for today, Thanks for reading. Nak tidur ni. Ngantok lah :O Take care sweethearts. Love ya xx.

Sincerely, Karen.

9 months anniversary with baby boy.

Hi korangggg! :')
K, dah hampir sebulan tak update blog. Rindu tak? Eh eh I know korang rindu :P Ecececeh gurau k :3 So, korang sihat? Hows holidays? Best? Well, mine is not so bad too.

Btw, here comes December :) Hi december darling, please be nice to me? *Cute face* Heeee please make my december better than November. November has been cruel to me. I want to live to the fullest. No regrets. I want to make people around me proud! I want to live happily without any drama. So please be nice? :) #DecemberWish - Be happy with no regrets.


Okay. Now pasal my baby boy :* Hahahhaa.
Haritu jumpa dia. Hari khamis.  Wuuuuuuu dia sanggup jalan jauh demi Karen :) Terharuuu. Heee dating agak lama ah. Sejam lebih ada lah. Then hujan............Hahahaha pernah dengar ayat ni "Best feeling ever: Kissing in the rain." Hahahahahahaha my wish came true :* ececececehh dahdah malu lah -.- Hahahaha. Pheww, sumpah rindu dia dah skrg ni :( Rindu nak pegang tgn dia, rindu................semua ah :D

9 Months anniversary with my baby boy.

Yes. 9Months. Heeeeeeeeeeeee omg I swear I love him like crazy! Ini lah relationship paling lama. Nak kekal lama dengan dia ni. Actually karen nak post bende ni esok, because anniversary kitorang esok, tapi hari isnin pergi Thailand. So busy packing takot tak sempat nak update blog. Yelah bukan senang nak update blog ni. Kene fikir dulu nak ckp pasal apa bagai -.- Right bloggers? Hahah cehh bajet bajet je. Takpe, wish awal sikit takpe, Kan? Hahaha. Oh, back to the  topic. Haa, HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BABY BOY :* Thanks sbb sanggup bertahan  dgn perangai kite yang agak sial ni. Eh sial? Hahahahah whatever. Saya sayang awak sangat sangat :* Jangan nakal tau? Dapat tahu siap ah. Kite bunuh awak nanti. *asah parang* Haha. I love you sepenuh hati saya :* Muahhhhhhhh! :)

I love you future husband  :* 

8 Months Anniversary with sayang.

Hello readers! *waving* Sihat? Eh mesti lah kan. Hehe.

Okay, first nak cakap pasal exam. Currently, exam is still going on. Exam started on the 23rd October till 9th November. Yeap, last day of school. Well, subjects are hard. Yang confident is BM, BI, MORAL and SEJARAH kot? Tah lah. Yang lain? Sumpah susah like shitzzzzzzzz. Add maths tak buat apa pun ._. Hahaha. This coming week, accounts, ekonomi and science is left to be done.

Okay here it comes...................................................

"Happy anniversary darling <3 Tolong jangan tinggalkan kite :/ Kite sayang dekat anje kite sangatt sangat! Kite taknak kehilangan anje :l Maybe anniversary ni kite tak dapat bg hadiah lagi kot? Sbb takde duit la. Sorry sbb kite tak bg present dekat anje. Haritu pun sekali je. Nanti kalau kite dah ade duit, kite belikan present lah. I love you sooooooo much darling :* Kite cinta Karen Veena sangat sangat! Kite sayang Karen Veena sangat sangat! I love you so much :* "  -From Syed.

YEAY! Harini anniversary 8 bulan dengan Syed. Wuuuuuuu. HAPPY ANNIVERSARY SAYANG! I love you so much :*Now ni lah relationship karen yang paling lama. Harap dapat kekal lama lagi dengan budak hensem jambu bibir pink ni :* Heeeeee. Fikir senang ke nak kekal sampai 8bulan ni? Susah doh. Like seriously. Dengan gaduhnya, sakit hati, and many more. And theres one point where kitorang hampir break k :( Tapi Syed still pertahankan hubungan kitorang ni :) He always try to make it right and make me feel better. Thanks bee. Itu yang kite paling suka pasal hubby :* Eh bukan tu je, hehehehehehehe bibir dia tu yang kite paling suka :* Hahahahahahahaha cehhh suka eh? Cium kang -.- Thats what I want from the person I love :) Sumpah bee, kite tak pernah fikir pun  nak curang. Because I really love you. Kite sayang hubby sangat sangat sangat sangat. Haa hamekauuuuu banyak SANGAT tu. Hehehe and hubby, kite tak kesah lah kalau hubby tak bagi present pun. Ape lah hubby ni. Kite bukan jenis yang asyik nak present je k -.- Bukannya cinta kite berkurang pun kalau takde present :) I love you so much sayang. And Happy 8th Month anniversarry again, baby boy :)

And your hugs are my favourite :') I love you sayang. 

Haaa nama Syed dekat twitter dia dah tukar. Dia tukar "FIRENA". Do you know what Firena means? :) Its the cobination between Firdaus and Veena. firidaus nama dia, veena is mine. Haha terharu pulak tengok dia tukar. Haha eh biasa ah laki kan, nak control macho dia tu. Haha Well, nama karen pun dah tukar. Karen tukar "PIPIT'S BABYGIRL" Heeeeee Why pipit? Because pipit is Syed's nick name. Family dia panggil dia pipit. Comel kan nama tu? Haha comel macam dia :P 

Okay guys. Tu je for today. Thanks for reading eh? Take care koranggggggg! :) Bye :*

Moving on the next chapter.

Hi.

Kecewa, sedih, sakit hati & more to come. I'm trying to move on, but it doesn't seem to work. Bersabar? Dah lama bersabar. Sampai dah penat untuk bersabar. Sampai bila karen nak bersabar? Sampai mati? Sampai bila awak nak saya tunggu? Sampai bilaaaaaaaaaaaaa? Perempuan mmg kuat. Tapi saya tak kuat. Langsung tak kuat. Bukan semua perempuan boleh bersabar. Kita ada perasaan. We are not animals. Forget it, even animals have feelings. They cry like humans too, they know whats hard and whats easy. I'm trying to be strong. But no. I can't. There's a word called "Move on", I'm trying very hard to be there. Moving on is not easy. Seriously bukan  senang. How can I just forget the 7 months we had?  I'm trying to work our relationship and make it stronger day by day. But I guess faith is not being by my side. Faking a smile is not an easy thing. Maybe awak tengok saya sentiasa senyum, sentiasa happy. Dekat skolah, mmg susah tengok saya muka masam. Memang susah tengok saya marah. Because I don't wanna show my sorrows. Why should I? No one cares. Dalam hati siapa tahu? Saya sedih, marah, kecewa saya tak suka hebohkan. Saya diam. Why? Sebab saya taknak gaduh. Saya tak sanggup. I'm don't prefer to make it a big thing. Maybe being silent is the best way. Saya dah berubah demi awak. Dah lama saya berubah. Tapi awak? Bila nak berubah? Bila saya dah takde dalam hidup awak? No. Its too late. You have to change now. Memang ramai lagi saya boleh cari, tapi saya masih pilih awak. Sebab saya sayangkan awak. Saya dengar cakap awak. Tak bersyukur? For  7 months we shared our love and it grew till now. What happened? Where's the cute loving boy I used to know? Where's the guy I loved the most? WHERE? Saya dah bagi awak peluang kedua. Saya akan tunggu. Awak dah berjanji right? Yes. Saya nak tengok. Awak buktikan dulu yang awak akan berubah. Well, maybe hubungan kita takkan jadi macam dulu balik. Its all depending on you. Awak sorang je yang boleh jadikan macam dulu balik. The voice I heard yesterday really gave me a strong feeling that you're gonna change. Stop crying. Dah, jangan menangis. Saya sedih dengar awak menangis. Your tears will be my tears too. So please. Ambik lah peluang ini untuk berubah. Saya akan tunggu. Biar lah saya sedih macam mana pun. I'll try my best to be as strong as I can just to see you change.  I promise I will. I love you jantung hati ♥

"Perempuan menangis ditinggalkan lelaki itu perkara normal. Lelaki menangis ditinggalkan perempuan ruginya perempuan itu"♥

K guys. Thats all for today. Take care bye :)