Moving on the next chapter.

Hi.

Kecewa, sedih, sakit hati & more to come. I'm trying to move on, but it doesn't seem to work. Bersabar? Dah lama bersabar. Sampai dah penat untuk bersabar. Sampai bila karen nak bersabar? Sampai mati? Sampai bila awak nak saya tunggu? Sampai bilaaaaaaaaaaaaa? Perempuan mmg kuat. Tapi saya tak kuat. Langsung tak kuat. Bukan semua perempuan boleh bersabar. Kita ada perasaan. We are not animals. Forget it, even animals have feelings. They cry like humans too, they know whats hard and whats easy. I'm trying to be strong. But no. I can't. There's a word called "Move on", I'm trying very hard to be there. Moving on is not easy. Seriously bukan  senang. How can I just forget the 7 months we had?  I'm trying to work our relationship and make it stronger day by day. But I guess faith is not being by my side. Faking a smile is not an easy thing. Maybe awak tengok saya sentiasa senyum, sentiasa happy. Dekat skolah, mmg susah tengok saya muka masam. Memang susah tengok saya marah. Because I don't wanna show my sorrows. Why should I? No one cares. Dalam hati siapa tahu? Saya sedih, marah, kecewa saya tak suka hebohkan. Saya diam. Why? Sebab saya taknak gaduh. Saya tak sanggup. I'm don't prefer to make it a big thing. Maybe being silent is the best way. Saya dah berubah demi awak. Dah lama saya berubah. Tapi awak? Bila nak berubah? Bila saya dah takde dalam hidup awak? No. Its too late. You have to change now. Memang ramai lagi saya boleh cari, tapi saya masih pilih awak. Sebab saya sayangkan awak. Saya dengar cakap awak. Tak bersyukur? For  7 months we shared our love and it grew till now. What happened? Where's the cute loving boy I used to know? Where's the guy I loved the most? WHERE? Saya dah bagi awak peluang kedua. Saya akan tunggu. Awak dah berjanji right? Yes. Saya nak tengok. Awak buktikan dulu yang awak akan berubah. Well, maybe hubungan kita takkan jadi macam dulu balik. Its all depending on you. Awak sorang je yang boleh jadikan macam dulu balik. The voice I heard yesterday really gave me a strong feeling that you're gonna change. Stop crying. Dah, jangan menangis. Saya sedih dengar awak menangis. Your tears will be my tears too. So please. Ambik lah peluang ini untuk berubah. Saya akan tunggu. Biar lah saya sedih macam mana pun. I'll try my best to be as strong as I can just to see you change.  I promise I will. I love you jantung hati ♥

"Perempuan menangis ditinggalkan lelaki itu perkara normal. Lelaki menangis ditinggalkan perempuan ruginya perempuan itu"♥

K guys. Thats all for today. Take care bye :)